blues

I’ve got the Blues

and

the Blues

has got taken me

Slowly

I am

sipping its muddy waters

just

like a most excellent wine

Dissolving

its bitter-sweet taste

on my tongue

Filling

every inch of my veins

with that fatal

poison

Sinking

sinking deeper

and even deeper

Floating

on the darkest of grounds

The weight of my thoughts

heavier

than a Sisyphus stone

Lying there

wasting away in agony

So close to

drowning

Off everyone!

You can’t help me here

It’s not me

you are talking to

not me

you are looking at

-with that

rejection

in your face-

It’s the monster within

Eating me up

drinking my blood

making me weak

doing no deed

Who are you

parasite?

And

why

are you living of me?

Is it part of

myself

bringing

you

into being?

And what

purpose

for?

Yet

I believe that

Hope

will find it’s way back to my

Heart

and a spark of

Light

will hit my

Soul

just in time…

Once more

I will return home

stronger

and still more

beautiful…

Having been beaten

you

all over again

cause

God

has never left me

nor

will he ever

do