Polarstern

Wenn eines Tages Du nicht weißt

wohin Dein Weg  Dich wohl geheißt

ein helles Licht im Firmament

-was man auch gerne  Nordstern nennt-

die Richtung wird Dir wohl geleiten

durch tausend Nächte magst Du schreiten…

Ein Leuchten hell, ein Leuchten rein

welch wunderschöner Sternenschein

geborgen sollst fortan Dich fühlen

mittenmang des Lebens Mühlen

unterm Horizont so klar

spricht zu Dir der Stern Polar!

farewell my lover

Farewell my lover

as for now

we

must part

I can’t deny

my sorrowful cry

but as it’s so

the walls around your heart

are

closed

I can’t get near

nor are you able

to disarm my fear

two souls wounded

and both

still needing time

to heal

we attracted each other

like magnets that flatter

all the joy

a short while only

with no promise

for repeat

yet when we met

our hopes were set

desires unsatisfied

always climbing

for the highest moon

long hours of lovemaking

Farewell my lover

you must go

wherever it is leading you

if achieving goals is your mission

I can’t share your vision

but will I always pray

that one day

the shell around your heart

might break

no doubt sweet mate of mine

I won’t forget your shine

much did I hoped for it

to last

but without intend

you keep hurting me

no longer can I stand the pain

cause this is not my kind of game

I love you darling

that's for sure

and therefore I regret

that I must let you go

this one last kiss

 my utter bliss

your hair so soft

the smell, the taste around your skin

such beauty in your eyes

a picture for gods

farewell my lover

you take care

and god be by your side!

these days

these days

silence is my friend

you and me together

what a peaceful band

quiet now

just listen

to the gentle hissing

of the universe

these days

sometimes

even music is too much

for my distressed being

will you shut up

everyone

cut that noise - please tell me

where is all the stillness gone?

I don’t need no more distraction

so much going on within

what it lacks is concentration

and a bit of dim

time - my precious darling

where have you been heading to?

wrap me please that I can rest

on your lovely squashy chest

crazy times of no return

are we loosing us?

“I can’t breathe”

is what I weep

yet who will listen

anyway...

these days

are not made for me

may you visit me

oneday

ask for “lunatic asylum”

right away!

heartache

What is it when it hurts? 

 

My own unability to show my feelings? 

 

Do words really matter? 

 

Can you not read in the sparkle of my eyes? 

In my eluding gaze? 

In the whisper of this moments magic? 

 

Can you not feel what i feel? 

 

Where does that heartache come from?

arisen

Kind awakening from hibernation 

How long have I been sleeping for? 

Now everything is new to me 

Just like the first snow ever felt 

The first breath taken consciously 

The first kiss wholy shared with you 

 

Death returning to life 

Moving slowly 

Reassembling bones 

Darkness was my companion 

Hand in glove with mind for long 

 

 

(unfinished)

fallen for you

A smile from you

does mean the world to me

A hidden gaze
a secret chase

This longing of the universe
felt strongly all along

Inside my soul I feel for you
a love I haven't known before

A love so free
a love so sheer
a love to be of beauty pure

My heart is beating ever since
no ocean quenching this desire

Can I be strong?
or is  it weakness letting go?

I think I've fallen for you...

warrior woman

Tightening my warrior’s armour

while

tears are streaming down my face

‘This is war.’ he’s been declaring

with a sort of mystic smile

and

all of a sudden I realize

why

my heart is aching

ever since

why

my soul is filled with infinite sadness

from the beginning of human time

And

all of a sudden I realize

why

my body keeps bleeding

from hardship

Tightening my warrior’s armour

transmuting

right in front of you

In disguise

defeating you

with your very own weapons

keeping my weak points

hidden

You

decided for this foolish game

So

I am

tightening my warrior’s armour

just

to survive yet another lifetime

blues

I’ve got the Blues

and

the Blues

has got taken me

Slowly

I am

sipping its muddy waters

just

like a most excellent wine

Dissolving

its bitter-sweet taste

on my tongue

Filling

every inch of my veins

with that fatal

poison

Sinking

sinking deeper

and even deeper

Floating

on the darkest of grounds

The weight of my thoughts

heavier

than a Sisyphus stone

Lying there

wasting away in agony

So close to

drowning

Off everyone!

You can’t help me here

It’s not me

you are talking to

not me

you are looking at

-with that

rejection

in your face-

It’s the monster within

Eating me up

drinking my blood

making me weak

doing no deed

Who are you

parasite?

And

why

are you living of me?

Is it part of

myself

bringing

you

into being?

And what

purpose

for?

Yet

I believe that

Hope

will find it’s way back to my

Heart

and a spark of

Light

will hit my

Soul

just in time…

Once more

I will return home

stronger

and still more

beautiful…

Having been beaten

you

all over again

cause

God

has never left me

nor

will he ever

do

prayer

Grand

dear God

I’m ready now

Please oh please

just

hear me out

I’m all set up

well rearing to go

eager and willing

impatient too

No storm can hold me back

no broken heart defeat my wings

Oh

dear God

I’m ready now

Ready

for the next stride

Please oh please

I’m begging you

To teach me what I ought to know

So much there is I want to learn

thus deep my souls desire

So passionately I’d acquire

these traits I lots admire

Oh

grand God

Please send a sign

and show me how to be

true to myself and life's great mystery

If I stumble I shall not mourn

should I fall I’ll rise up again

and may I fail I'll try anew...

Please release my heart from wanting

yet make me able to give all

Remove the fury, despair and the envy

do not let me live this life a lie

Great good god

breeze giver, breath taker

magician of the universe

I pray upon you today

for I need to see

how to hold on patently

I plead with you with all my heart

 to tell me how to find that spark

convince me of it all making sense

reveal to me the meaning hence

Make me let go of things with ease

And free my soul of sorrow please

As

all I wish in this life for

is to adore and bless

to empathy and try my best

to trust once more

and carry on

however hard this life will come

to share my love with everyone

but to be just someone’s special one

That’s all I ask of you my God

may you be worshipped much

and granted ‘Thanks’ a lot!

surrender

feelings flooding through me

just like the oceans waves

where am I am I going?

what to think i do not know 
what i sense i do not show

skin so thin
my heart's been broken

healing is the mission now

hold me hold me oh so tightly
i'll surrender in your arms

and when you catch my teardrops running
you might be the lucky one!

indistructible

 Why

would  you want to hurt me

time and again?

Could it be jealousy
on your part?

Jealousy,
cause I am capable of opening  up
myself?

Whereas you
got to hyde
under this frozen mask?

Jealousy,
cause I am pacing my own path
now?

I won't let you

undo

this new gained joy

For my joy

springs from my heart

And love

is a treasure

indistructible

hurricane's eye

In the midst of the storm

will I be hiding in the hurricane's eye

all curled up

retreating

There,

where tears stop streaming

will I be freezing to nothingness

eventually regaining

peacefulness

In the eye of the hurricane

all living things revive

what was ones lost

will now be blossoming

in joy

fast train

Come catch me on a fast train

and share

the beauty of this ride

Together we will dance in joy

amongst

the starry night

my own people

I am my own people

as always will be

like the snow falling

minding it’s distinct business

the childlike’s soul only

deeply is touched by it’s magic

a fiery kiss of mine

whispers affection

revealing me seeing your beauty

even if hidden yourself

and nor will the wine, the red light

transform truth into illusion

I love the snow

and so

will I be like the snow:

innocent

thank you

Happiness lies within

and I am deeply gratefull
towards all of You
to have found what I came forth to find

My journey goes on
but am I not afraid

I am a warrior inside
body, mind and soul
reaching deeper and deeper levels of understanding
and love

Creating myself anew
with every breath I take

Believing
in the things I do believe in
trusting my own heart
and trying again every single day

Life is a wonder
full of mysterious beauty
full of magic and love

Thanks for being reborn with this noble view
thanks for having guided me through the darkness of my inner forest
searching
to see the brightest light shining

Thanks to all of You who have crossed my way
I am able to forgive
able to let go
able now to open my heart fully
embracing
and looking forward to whatever it is to come

Life is a continuous celebration
Thank you
And thank You to forgive me
for whatever I've done onto you
for whatver I still might be doing onto you

Thank you!